Friday, August 29, 2008

Happy Door


Not one to complain, but I feel as though numerous doors have been closing on my life these past few months that have left me a bit numb.  Some have been very painful, some not so much yet still there is a void and one that I would have to say was a joyful, closing/opening that while I dreaded it, it has left me totally content. 

Last Sunday, my husband and I dropped our youngest daughter off at NYU as she begins her college career in the Big Apple.  This is the same daughter that I spent several days with in an emergency room as we got her health back on track 2 weeks ago.  Driving 16 hours from Chicago out to Greenwich Village was long and tiring, the moving in process--23 floors housing over 600 men and women was easier than I thought and Kylie has, according to her older sister, "taken ownership of her environment" and she could not be happier if she tried.  As I said goodbye to her at the end of our stay I had no tears to shed.  I hugged her tight and whispered in her ear, "You, my dear, are exactly where you need to be." It was evident that I was leaving her to her future--whatever I could have done for her as a mom and teacher is not necessarily complete but certainly, has been enough to prepare her for this.  All I can say is, I wish I were her.  Twelve dollar student tickets to Broadway plays, tours of the United Nations, bumping into the likes of Matt Damon and Will Smith who happen to live down the street from her dorm, being exposed to a variety of lifestyles, having continuous dialogs regarding those lifestyles, looking at cultural and spiritual diversity as part of your dorm experience--these are just a tip of the iceberg of what is in store for her this year and until she graduates in 2012. 

Now back in Chicago, I have moments when I have to stop as I feel the physical distance between us and it takes hold of my heart and tugs at it.  But then I open my email and find a mile long discourse from her on the events of the last few days and I feel her complete bliss come through her words.  I marvel at her maturity and bravado and can just shake my head and smile. 

She is home!

5 comments:

Phivos Nicolaides said...

Kim, keep on smiling and trust the future of your beloving daughter. Your text is so touching. Hope my e-mail is encluded in our long list...

chubbs said...

From the moment I heard Ky was off to NYU, boy oh boy was I jealous and envious. What a great opportunity and a great life experience, for anyone, let alone a young lady with so much potential and so much to contribute to the world.

Hat's off to her for making it happen, and to her folks for not only sending her on her way, but for leading her to where she needs to be.

Well done...

Kim said...

You know what Philip, she keeps me smiling with all her crazy emails and text messages to me. She is having a wonderful time. What more could we ask for our children but for them to be happy!!

Kim said...

chubbs--you are a sweetie. thanks for sharing in Ky's joy. I always say that I would love to go back to college with the wisdom I have now, the disposable income I have now and the passion for life and learning that has increased over the years for me. it would be a whole different ballgame!!

Phivos Nicolaides said...

Kim, you are absolutely right. I'm a father and I know very well how you feel and how react. Keep on your long way...